(Read Isaiah 43:4-7)
I've found that I have been constantly comparing myself to others. I'm not sure when it all began, but everytime I see someone better than me at things, I couldn't help but look down on myself.
I always feel like I'm never good enough. I’m not that good at academics. I'm also not that good at sports, and I don't even know how to play instruments. These are just some of the reasons why I compared myself to others. I used to think, "Why can't I do things the way they can?" or "If they can do it, can I do it too?" I am so insecure with myself. I even forced myself to do things just to please the people around me. You know the feeling that you put a lot of effort into something, but they didn't even notice it? They even notice other people. And the worst part is that you know in yourself that the person they noticed didn't even make the slightest effort. It's somehow ironic that those who work hard don't get enough recognition and appreciation.
Well, it sucks. I used to think, maybe I'm good, but maybe not good enough?
My aunt once invited me to a church gathering. I was hesitant at first, but I ended up going with her. Even though I was a little uncomfortable talking to some youth I met at the church, I made a lot of new friends. Our mentor, who also happens to be a worship leader, taught us how to sing. I was embarrassed by her big smile and the way she looked at me. She also said "Hey, you're doing fine. I knew you could sing," she said out of nowhere. And I was like, "Yeah? Kind of. I'm not sure if I can sing, though". To tell you the truth, it was the first time I had heard someone compliment me. I was shocked when she asked me to join their worship team months later. It's strange because I'm not a singer, but I decided as if someone whispered in my ear to join. With the passage of time, I've discovered a lot of things that I never imagined. I gradually improved my singing talent, I discovered that I have leadership skills, as well as communication and listening skills, and lastly, I developed my writing skills.
By God's grace, I've come to know that I'm worthy and valuable. God let me realized that not everything is intended for me. I don't have to compare myself to anyone because there are certain aspects that are just for me. We have unique gifts. There are some things that I don't have that you do. There are some things I have that you don't. We're all different, but it doesn't mean that one is lesser or greater than the other.
Never put yourself in a position where you have to compare yourself to others. When you feel like you're not good enough, remember that you are the apple of the Lord's eyes. There's God, who sees you more precious than diamonds (Isaiah 43:4). And that you don't have to win trophies, or to try hard enough to be accepted, because He loves you more than enough, greater than your imperfections and your weaknesses. God have amazing plans for you, trust His process. (Jeremiah 29:11)
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